Do you think its weird that I had with my cousin?

He's the kind of guy I always dreamed of marrying. He's successful, smart, sort of looks like a 12 year old boy. But I love him, and people just don't understand. He was was talking about marriage and I think there is enough genetic variation that it would be ok. I know its wrong, but I just love having his **** inside me. I also had with his brother, who is also my cousin, which he doesn't know about. They're both just so perfect but one day i want to have kids with this one. I dont think its strange at all. In Colombia they do it all the time. WHat do you think? Should I go for it?